Summer Photo Dump

Heyo everyone!!

Okay, how crazy is this: summer is nearly over! Wow, I’m not sure about you, but I can hardly believe it! I guess it’s true what they say about how time flies when you’re having fun, because this summer sure has been an amazing one, and it feels like it’s lasted no longer than a blink of an eye!

The end of summer is one of my least favourite times of the year… I hate saying goodbye to the long summer days and switching back into the school year routine and mindset!

But hey, this post isn’t to dwell on the end of summer… it’s to share what I’ve been up to during it! I realize I haven’t been super active over the past three months, especially not while I was away this last month, so I thought it would be fun to catch you guys up on what I’ve been up to… and, well, we all know my favourite way to do that is through pictures!

So here goes: my 2021 Michigan trip photo dump!!!

Friends, that’s all for this photo dump, but I hope you enjoyed looking through it as much as I enjoyed making it! That’s all just a little bit of what I got up to whilst we were away this summer but I’d love to hear about YOUR summer… what have you been up to? Did you get away anywhere? What were some of the most fun things you did? What’s your favourite memory from the last three or so months? Let’s chat down in the comments below!

One Year of Not So Perfect!!

Friends!! I have something SO exciting to tell you… I’m sure you managed to guess it from the title but: NOT SO PERFECT IS TURNIG ONE!!! It feels SO crazy to think I’ve has this little space for exactly one whole year today!!!

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When You Don’t “Feel” Like A Christian: A Guest Post by Rebekkah

Hello wonderful people! 

Everyone has days when they don’t “feel like a Christian” – when you don’t want to read your Bible, when prayer is hard – but some days are especially hard. And what about when those days become weeks? 

In this post, we’ll be looking at those times, the lies Satan tells you, and what to do when they hit you. 

Everyone Struggles

You’re not alone. Believe it or not, everyone has days when they don’t feel like a Christian – even pastors and the people in your church. Most people just don’t talk about it. Being a believer isn’t easy – even believing isn’t easy. Let’s not forget that.

Mainstream Christianity Isn’t Everything 

I find modern worship songs hit and miss. There’s some that I adore (Nobody by Casting Crowns, for example), and some that when they come on, I turn the radio off. Sometimes, it’s a matter of mood. 

Don’t feel guilty because you don’t fit in with, or particularly like, mainstream Christianity, or whatever part of it. 

Christ living a perfect life for us, dying on the cross, and being resurrected – that is the core of real, timeless Christianity. Cling to Christ.

Do It Anyway

Sadly, not every Bible study is going to be this relaxing, quiet time with a cup of tea and some journaling at the end. Not every prayer is going to be like talking to a friend. 

Those are wonderful, noble things to aim for, but we are sinful human beings and won’t always accomplish them. Some days, I have to force myself to do it.  I try to remind myself that it’ll pay off. I may not feel the Spirit, but that doesn’t mean He isn’t working (Isaiah 55:10-11).

A pastor once told me that personal devotions are the single most important thing you do, that it will change your life, and that God will give you the strength to do it every day. 

So, it may not be pretty, you may not want to do it, but do it anyway. 

Fake It When You Have To, But Be Honest

Yes, sometimes you’ll have to fake it. Sing the hymn even when you are struggling with doubt. Pretend like you want to when you sit down and read a chapter.  

But in the midst of faking it and doing it anyway, don’t be afraid to be honest about your struggles. It can be scary to drag your struggles and feelings into the light, but it’s a good thing, one that allows you to be strengthened, encouraged, and helped. 

Faith > Feelings

Just because you don’t “feel” like a Christian doesn’t mean that you aren’t a Christian. The doubts that flit through your mind don’t define you. And just because you don’t always act and feel like a child of God doesn’t mean you aren’t His. 

I know it’s hard to remember that. Feelings and emotions overwhelm me at times, and I often wonder if I’m “good enough”. But I’m being constantly reminded that 

 “It does not, therefore, depend on human desire or effort, but upon God’s mercy.” Romans 9:16, (NIV)


 “How can you be so foolish! You began by God’s Spirit; do you now want to finish by your own power?” Galatians 3:3, (GNB)

It’s not all on me. In fact, none of it is: all I must do is believe that Christ will save me. My salvation hangs on how good He was, not how good I am. 

You are a beloved child of God, and you are saved, no matter how you feel. On the days that you don’t want to, or you’re having a hard time believing it, you ARE still His. Emotions are big, but God is bigger. He loves you, and there’s nothing you can do about it. 

Tips and Tricks

Lastly, I have a few tips and tricks to help you when you don’t feel like a Christian.

  • Build habits. Read your Bible and pray everyday. It won’t be easy to start and to stay in it sometimes, but it will 100% pay off. It’ll get easier as you do it more and more. 
  • Make it fun. Add things that you enjoy – whether that be creating tabs for your Bible, listening to worship music, or reading through your favorite Bible stories/books. Why make it harder than it needs to be? 
  • Pray about it. Take your struggles, your doubt, your hardening heart to God. Ask Him to help. He’s not going to strike you down if you admit to being sinful and imperfect. Remember, He loves you. 
  • Keep your eyes on Christ, not on yourself. The funny thing about sin is the more you focus on it (and how you should be doing better), the more you get wrapped up in it. So keep your focus on Christ instead. 

Well, here we are, at the end. I hope this post helped and encouraged you. It was such an honor to guest post! 

Have you found anything that’s helped you when you don’t feel like a Christian? Any ‘aha’ moments lately? 

May God bless, 

Rebekkah Waner is an eighteen-year-old Jesus freak who likes music (rock and pop, mostly), Disney movies, reading, squirrels, Pinterest boards, writing, and American Ninja Warrior. She’s a cat lover who tries to be cool, but fails, usually while listening to Skillet.

She blogs over at the Blue Pail, about random awesomeness. 


The Rain

It was a Wednesday evening more than a month ago when the rain finally came. The heatwave that had swept across England was just about over, and the rain was long overdue. The air was clammy and hot when I felt the first, fat drops. We ran inside clutching as much as we could and beat the downpour by a mere second- the moment the door shut, the heavens opened and the rain began to fall from the sky quicker and quicker. 

It rained all night, the drops drumming against the skylight window outside my bedroom. It rained all of the next day too… and the next. Then finally, when everyone had had just about enough of the rain, it stopped. Saturday was humid and grey… but dry. 

That night when the rain first came, I stuck my head out of the loft window and felt the fat drops fall onto my cheeks and I thought about how there was nothing I could do to control the rain… about how it was completely out of my hands. I looked across my town, there were only houses upon houses for as far as I could see. Overhead I saw big grey clouds rolling in with more rain. There was something about that moment… something that made me realize just how weak and insignificant I was compared to the storm ahead.

There are often times in life where I feel just as weak and insignificant as I did in that moment. Things happen that are so far out of my hands and they remind me how I have so little control over so many things. Thinking like that can be daunting. We can feel helpless, like a tiny sailboat being tossed around between crashing waves. 

When I think back to that moment where I leaned out of the window and felt the rain land on my face, I remember how powerless I felt. But I remember too how calm I felt… not because I knew I was in control but because I knew the One who was. 

One of my favorite Bible stories from growing up in Sunday school is the one in Mark 4:35-41 where Jesus calms a storm. Jesus was out fishing with His disciples and He fell asleep on the boat. As He slept, a storm came up. The disciples were terrified, and they woke Jesus up and asked Him to do something. Mark 4:39 says, ‘He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.’

With a single sentence, Jesus calmed the raging wind and waves. He spoke… and it was done. Even a powerful storm… a force of nature… obeyed His voice! That is how powerful Jesus is! The disciples saw this too and in Mark 4:41 they said to each other, ‘“Who is this? Even the wind and the waves obey him!”’

I love thinking about how, just like Jesus was in complete control over the storm out on the lake, He was also in control over the rain as it began to fall that Wednesday evening. And not only is He in control over the literal storms we see but the storms of life too. 

In the same way that God was in control over that literal storm, He is in control over the storms of life. He is bigger than our battles, mightier than our mountains and greater than our giants. He knows tomorrow, He has a plan and He will not fail us. He can speak and watch it be done, with a mere touch He can heal the hurting. There is NO ONE more powerful than our God!

We’re merely human beings and because of that, I don’t think we’ll ever be able to fully comprehend just how powerful God is. But when, even only in our childlike ways, we simply acknowledge that He is not only far more powerful than we will ever know but also that there is no one or nothing more powerful than him, we can be filled with a sense of peace knowing that our lives rest in the hands of the All Powerful One. 

Trusting that God is in control doesn’t mean that our lives are suddenly going to be easy. It doesn’t mean things will automatically go smoothly or how even we want them to go. No, in fact, what God promises is far from that. In Psalm 23:4 the psalmist praises God for being beside him even through the difficult bits of life. He says ‘Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff they comfort me.’ 

Although we know that trusting in God and His plan doesn’t mean our life will be easy or free from suffering, we can trust that He will be with us throughout the good and the bad. And above all, we can know that He is in control. 

Friends, I pray that we are able to find peace in the knowledge that God is in control over the storms of our lives, just as he is over the storms of lightning and thunder and rain.

My Summer Playlist

Heyo, sweet friend!

It’s that time of the year again… the windows down, music up kind of time! I’ve upgraded my Spotify so I can have uninterrupted listening all summer and I’m pretty much blasting music 24-7!!! I’m in the ‘dancing round the kitchen whilst I do the dishes’ and the ‘fall asleep listening to music’ kinda moods!

I’ve not really done this kind of post before, but I though it would be SO fun to share what music I’m currently listening to and who my fave artists are at the moment. Hopefully you can take some inspiration from my playlists and maybe even share some suggestion from your own in the comments below! Let’s get into it!

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Turn Your Eyes

When we were much younger, my sister and I shared a room. We had these white wooden bunk beds with matching pink patchwork bedding… I slept on the top and she slept on the bottom. Each night, before we would go to bed, my mom would come in to say goodnight and go through our bedtime routine (which was essentially a series of questions, haha.)

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What I’ve Been up to this Summer + Photo Dump!

Friends, I cannot believe it but I’m more than a month into my summer! How crazy is that!? Summer is 105% my favourite season of the year, and being off school for so long this year makes it even better! I’ve been having so much fun not having to do anything for school, so how could I not do a post about what I’ve been up to and what my upcoming plans are!?

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What A Friend We Have In Jesus

Some years ago I was shopping with my mom and I came across a birthday card with a sequence of three pictures of a giraffe on it. In the top picture, the giraffe had just arrived at a party and had eagerly knocked on the door, holding a present and card. In the second picture, the birthday boy (who happened to be a lion) had squeezed all the other animals behind the door and opened it to tell the giraffe that there was, in fact, no party. And in the last picture, the lion had shut the door and the party had resumed, and the giraffe was walking sadly away from the door. As humorous as this card was probably intended to be, it nearly reduced eleven year old me to tears- I hated the idea of that poor giraffe being turned away because no one liked him enough to invite him to the party.

I still hate the loneliness that the giraffe on the card felt, but what I hate even more is that I’m surrounded by girls- real girls, not cartoon giraffes- to whom loneliness is so real and so painful.

So here it is: this one is for the girl who feels alone.

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How I Study the Bible

Heyo sweet friend! I hope you’re doing so well!

Today’s post is one I have been SO excited about for SO long now… it just took me forever to get my act together and put it to paper! Anyway, I thought it would be so fun to do a post about how I like to study the Word… so here you have it!

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I’m Back! + Little Life Update

Friends, I’m back! After taking a rather spontaneous and unplanned break from blogging and social media as school suddenly got super busy, I have finally returned to blogging!

I’ve been gone the best part of a month, and oh my stars, it’s June now! My, we have a lot of catching up to do! I’ll go first and give you a little life update, but it’s my favourite thing to hear what you have been up to, so make sure to update me on what’s been going on with you in the comments below!!

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